I am Caa Caa
7/7/2022 I am Caa Caa
My name is Cathy Simmons. I am the aunt of these three beautiful kids that have touched the lives of so many. I am here to explain my journey of grief with my family. Lindy, Christopher (Brother) and Kamryn meant the world to me, as do all my nieces and nephews. They have always been a part of my life from the moment they were born. I have been “Caa Caa” to them as long as they can remember.
I am the aunt that spoiled them and baby-sat all of them when their parents were working. I have no children of my own so these kids were my spiritual kids and I loved them like they were my own. They brought me so much joy, laughter, love and fulfillment. Although I didn't give birth to them in the natural realm, it was almost as if God filled that void in my life through Ray, my brother, and Dawn, the sister I never had. My heart's desire, at one time, was to have a family of my own, but it wasn't God's plan for my life. Although I was not blessed with the experience of having my own children, I am still so blessed to have all nine of these children in my life story. We have always lived next door to one another and still did at the time of the wreck. We are a very close and tight-knit family. I loved these babies with my whole heart and could never imagine life without any of them, much less having to live without three of them in an instant. These kids were beautiful, gifted, talented, creative, intelligent, and hilarious human beings. Lindy and I had a special bond. She was, in my eyes, my little girl, especially in her younger years. I will never be the same without her in my life.
December 17th, 2021 was the most traumatic night in my entire life. It was my worst nightmare, as it was for my whole family. It was an overwhelming feeling of panic, hopelessness and despair. Our lives were changed forever. We were now living in denial and shock. The BIG question unanswered is WHY? One of them would have been hard enough, but all three? Why Lord? The only good news was that Dawn and Marissa, Christopher's girlfriend and soulmate, had survived, and the three kids were now in heaven, their new home. Our loss and heaven's gain. Oh my, what a loss! We are determined to win this race and reunite with these wonderful kids again. We don't understand the whys, and won't dwell on the what ifs, as they will only bring torment. We choose to trust God because our Father knows best, and His abounding grace will bring us home. We will see them again, along with my mom and all of our other family members that are cheering us on! Until then, we will pray and praise our way to heaven, being forever thankful for God's gift of salvation in Jesus.
Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God knows me completely.
1 Corinthians 13:12
He gives the barren woman a home, making her the joyous mother of children. Praise the Lord!
Psalm 113:9